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From Now On

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“From now on…These eyes will not be blinded by the lights”
These are some lyrics from the song “From Now On” of the movie “The Greatest Showman”.
First off, I love this song, and it gets very upbeat towards the end and just makes you want to dance along. But the lyrics are awfully meaningful too.
You know how God will bring something to us at just the right time? This movie has actually been that a few different times. And these lyrics specifically have become so relevant to me lately.
Because my eyes do get blinded by the lights. It’s so easy sometimes.
“For years and years, I chased their cheers, a crazy speed of always needing more”
I’ve gotten this way with books, reading, supporting authors. Wishing, hoping, yearning for their accolades, their acknowledgement. To be honest, it stings to admit it. But it’s an ugly truth for me. I wanted their ‘cheers’, to be noticed for my countless years of book reviewing etc. And it wouldn’t really matter when I received it, because as the song says…it becomes a crazy speed of always needing more. And then I’ll look around and see others getting acknowledged for what they do, and see how they really are supporting these authors and doing more than I am doing, and I get jealous. Because I want that to be me.
And as I said, I get so caught up in it, to the point where I’m blinded by these ‘lights’. And the ‘lights’ can be any number of things – whatever we think our hearts desire is, and we get so blinded by it that it takes our focus away from what really matters.
“…but when I stop, and see You here, I remember who all this was for”
As I sat one evening pouring out my emotions into my journal, I had the soundtrack for The Greatest Showman playing in my mp3 player, and this song hit me so much stronger than before. The words all became clear to my situation, to what I was feeling, and where God wants me to be. So yes, I capitalized the ‘y’ on “You” in the above lyrics, because this is how God related it to me.  So often we get caught up in the whirring and busyness of life, and caught up in what we want to be doing. But we need to just stop. Set our eyes on the One stable thing in our lives, and remember Who we live for. And sometimes we will be forced to stop…

“‘Cause from that rubble,
what remains
Can only be what’s true
If all was lost
Its more I gain
‘Cause it led me back
To You”
This pain of chasing something that was unattainable made me stop – it was the rubble. It was a sort of ‘crash and burn’ situation. You can only run on searching for the lights for so long before the rubble becomes clear. But when the rubble is there,  the One thing that does remain is Him. In all this, He is clear, and if we lose the lights we strive for, we’ve gained more than what we ever thought we could’ve had from the lights. Because a great many times, it’s the pain and the rubble that brings us back to Him. It still makes me tear up as I sit here typing this.
He reminds me that whatever I do, I do for Him. It doesn’t make it easy all of the time, no. It’s hard but also it makes me thankful that He does woo us and bring us back to Him.  Because He is there when it stings. And He is always there to call us back Home. If only we will listen.
“And we will come back home
And we will come back home
Home, again!”
He is our Home. And oh how He rejoices when we return to this point!! When we stand in the rubble and refocus on what – and Who – is true. When we lay down the lights and the cheers, stop chasing after the things of this world, and come back to Him – we come back Home.
So it is my prayer that… “from now on, these eyes will not be blinded by the lights.” From now on, may my heart always find its place secure in the Home of Jesus.  I pray this for you too, reader. That whatever lights you find yourself temporarily blinded by, you will heed His call to come back Home. To what remains.
“Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ, and be found in Him.” Philippians 3:8-9
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Yet

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“Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls: Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds’ feet, and he will make me to walk upon mine high places.” Habakkuk 3:17-19

 

 

“Yet”

 
That word stands out to me in those verses above.
So many things were going wrong in this passage, disaster after disaster. They had every right to complain, to be down casted, according to the world’s standards. And yet…there’s that word. Yet. Yet I will praise You, O God of my salvation. I don’t know how he managed to utter those words when everything around him seemed hopeless. But maybe that’s just it – Habbaukkuk rose above his circumstances, through God’s strength. He looked at everything that was wrong around him, but he didn’t blame God or be broken down by despair. In fact, he didn’t even let himself stay where he was, neutral or nonfeeling, like could have. In the circumstances he described, it would have been easy enough to just shut down, or go into denial. To lose all hope.
But he didn’t. He decided to pick himself out of that mud and rise above it – to let God bring him to walk upon his high places, and say to the Lord that he trusts Him. No matter what. No matter how terrible things are, he will trust his Savior and praise Him through it all.

 
That is hard. But it is a choice.

 
Just the other week, I was faced with that choice too. My family and I were about to set off for a fun day. We had food, our ‘herd’ were in their stalls, grapes were on the vines (metaphorically); we had lots to be thankful for. But I was having horrendous sensory issues that morning. The tears were uncontrollable, I couldn’t stand what I had on, and I was stressed over ruining the fun we had planned. We had to leave in less than half an hour, and I was still sobbing.
My dear mother encouraged me to go up to my room and seek Jesus. Even just for the 10-15 mins before we had to leave.
As I sat in my room, I cried and poured out my heart to God, expressing myself to Him that I didn’t want to be uncomfortable, I wanted to have fun today. I wanted my clothing to feel fine so I could enjoy the day.
I opened my “Jesus Today” to the “randomly” picked devotional, and one of the verses shared was:

 
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9

 
The devotional went on to say how we are so strongly inclined to lean on our own understanding and that mindset dies hard. But the truth is, we can’t understand His ways with us. He is infinite. Thankfully we can rest assured that He has our best interests at heart.
I continued to pray and listen, and was just utterly hit with the reminder that Satan is a thief. He was doing his utmost best to keep me thinking on my clothing, keep me focused on the worry that I wouldn’t have a good day unless I was comfortable. He was trying to steal my joy. And I was letting him. Until I said NO. He’s an expert thief who comes in unannounced, but oh so present. I read the verses I had on my wall, each pouring into me the strength of Jesus, of His Word, and His promises. I verbally told Satan, “No” through tears. I had to repeat it over and over, “You will not steal my joy today. You will not ruin my day just because I hate my clothes. No.”

 
We are more than conquerors through Him who loves us. (Romans 8:37)

 
I hated my clothing. But because of Jesus, I could rise above that. I could employ the ‘yet factor’.
These clothing pieces may feel awful and they may needle me, but YET I will trust in God. I will give this day back into HIS hands, because isn’t that where it starts?

 
“Seek ye the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.” Mat 6:33

 
I was so focused on my clothing and my comfort because I wanted to have a good day. But a good day is not dependent on whether or not I am comfortable. A good day is not dependent on the circumstances around us. A day is good because it’s from Him and has been submitted into His hands, for His glory.
So as we left the house that morning, I continued to repeat the verse “We are more than conquerors” and I did end up having a very good day. Because I took my focus off the thief and his pursuits, and put them on my Savior.

 
Yet I will praise You.

 

This song is a beautiful one with lyrics that correlate with this post.