“From now on…These eyes will not be blinded by the lights”
These are some lyrics from the song “From Now On” of the movie “The Greatest Showman”.
First off, I love this song, and it gets very upbeat towards the end and just makes you want to dance along. But the lyrics are awfully meaningful too.
You know how God will bring something to us at just the right time? This movie has actually been that a few different times. And these lyrics specifically have become so relevant to me lately.
Because my eyes do get blinded by the lights. It’s so easy sometimes.
“For years and years, I chased their cheers, a crazy speed of always needing more”
I’ve gotten this way with books, reading, supporting authors. Wishing, hoping, yearning for their accolades, their acknowledgement. To be honest, it stings to admit it. But it’s an ugly truth for me. I wanted their ‘cheers’, to be noticed for my countless years of book reviewing etc. And it wouldn’t really matter when I received it, because as the song says…it becomes a crazy speed of always needing more. And then I’ll look around and see others getting acknowledged for what they do, and see how they really are supporting these authors and doing more than I am doing, and I get jealous. Because I want that to be me.
And as I said, I get so caught up in it, to the point where I’m blinded by these ‘lights’. And the ‘lights’ can be any number of things – whatever we think our hearts desire is, and we get so blinded by it that it takes our focus away from what really matters.
“…but when I stop, and see You here, I remember who all this was for”
As I sat one evening pouring out my emotions into my journal, I had the soundtrack for The Greatest Showman playing in my mp3 player, and this song hit me so much stronger than before. The words all became clear to my situation, to what I was feeling, and where God wants me to be. So yes, I capitalized the ‘y’ on “You” in the above lyrics, because this is how God related it to me. So often we get caught up in the whirring and busyness of life, and caught up in what we want to be doing. But we need to just stop. Set our eyes on the One stable thing in our lives, and remember Who we live for. And sometimes we will be forced to stop…
“‘Cause from that rubble,
Can only be what’s true
If all was lost
Its more I gain
‘Cause it led me back
This pain of chasing something that was unattainable made me stop – it was the rubble. It was a sort of ‘crash and burn’ situation. You can only run on searching for the lights for so long before the rubble becomes clear. But when the rubble is there, the One thing that does remain is Him. In all this, He is clear, and if we lose the lights we strive for, we’ve gained more than what we ever thought we could’ve had from the lights. Because a great many times, it’s the pain and the rubble that brings us back to Him. It still makes me tear up as I sit here typing this.
He reminds me that whatever I do, I do for Him. It doesn’t make it easy all of the time, no. It’s hard but also it makes me thankful that He does woo us and bring us back to Him. Because He is there when it stings. And He is always there to call us back Home. If only we will listen.
“And we will come back home
And we will come back home
He is our Home. And oh how He rejoices when we return to this point!! When we stand in the rubble and refocus on what – and Who – is true. When we lay down the lights and the cheers, stop chasing after the things of this world, and come back to Him – we come back Home.
So it is my prayer that… “from now on, these eyes will not be blinded by the lights.” From now on, may my heart always find its place secure in the Home of Jesus. I pray this for you too, reader. That whatever lights you find yourself temporarily blinded by, you will heed His call to come back Home. To what remains.
“Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ, and be found in Him.” Philippians 3:8-9