(click above image to go listen to the song, and continue reading – below lyrics are some thoughts!)
“We won’t numb the pain” – Tenth Avenue North
We’re taking paths of least resistance
And never feel our soul’s persistence
Turn on the radio
We don’t wanna know
Keep on running in cruise control
We were never meant to live like this
So much has happened and too easy to miss, yeah
Cheap thrills, social media thrills, use sex like a drug and we can’t keep still
Distracted, distracted
Keep ourselves so distracted
We want more
We won’t numb the pain
Hands reaching to the sky
Hearts ready for the fire
Eyes open till we die
We won’t numb the pain
Slow down inside your life
Stand still against the tide
Keep fighting for the silence
We won’t numb the pain
I talk influence and being strategic
But all I’m feeling is narcissistic
Use recognition, but the adrenaline won’t stop long enough to hear this conviction
We were never meant to live like this
Stand up for anything and be dismissed
We don’t want it real, we keep it trivial
Objectified sex it gives a greater feel
We won’t numb the pain
Hands reaching to the sky
Hearts ready for the fire
Eyes open till we die
We won’t numb the pain
Slow down inside your life
Stand still against the tide
Keep fighting for the silence
We won’t numb the pain
We want the cure, not a medication
We’re gonna deal with it now
We want the cure, not a medication
We’re gonna deal with it now
We won’t numb the pain
Hands reaching to the sky
Hearts ready for the fire
Eyes open till we die
We won’t numb the pain
Slow down inside your life
Stand still against the tide
Keep fighting for the silence
We won’t numb the pain
Gonna feel my,
Gonna feel my,
Gonna feel my heart now
Let me get a taste of your sweetness
Give me one glimpse of your lovely light
Lord, be my joy and treasure
My delight
Let me have a sense of your presence
May I trust your mercy all my life
I just wanna be a fire burning in the night
Fire, fire, fire, fire
Fire in my heart, fire in my soul
May the fire of your love burn away control
Satisfy my heart, cause I don’t wanna steal
Or give in to my lust just to feel
Fire, fire, fire, fire
I like this song a great deal, but it I just realised how close to home it hits as I try to hide from pain. Sure, I face quite a bit of physical pain daily, but that is not what I fear. It’s the emotional and heart-hurting pain that I fear. It’s the letting go and letting God – I don’t want to get hurt. So I numb the pain, even as I sing this song.
What if God doesn’t want me to numb the pain? What if He wants me to experience it, so I can grow from it, heal from it, and seek Him more? I think that is the truth. But it’s scary.
What kind of pain are you afraid of? Admit and reveal it to God. It’s what I’m working on too. Thankfully, we have a God who does not judge or condemn – He helps us and strengthens us. He knows what we’re feeling and what we’re facing before we even understand it ourselves.
“For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through Him might be saved.” – John 3:17
“Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10
He is your God. He is my God, and He will help you. He will help me. Because He loves us greatly. He will help us identify this pain we fear, and He will help us face is – help us conquer it, because through Jesus, we are more than conquerors! ”
“Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written:
“For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” – Romans 8:37
Hallelujah. :)
This post turned out a lot different than I first thought, but I will leave it here. May He fill the rest of this post with His words!