There is nowhere but Christ. And sometimes, we need to be absolutely pelted with that knowledge. We need to be reminded, especially when we are in our lowest, that Christ is everything, and there is nowhere else to go but to Christ.
I speak from experience, truly, I do. I have ran. I have sought relief through different things. But I am being pelted. And drawn back to my Creator. And praise Him for that!
You see, this year especially, I have been in the ‘refining fire’ of God. It’s not overly pleasant either. I’ve mostly kept quiet about it – I’m generally a private person. But it does help to read other’s accounts of things because other people struggle too.
So, I will say, it has been rough. I have been very low. I have struggled – and still am. My days are different than they were a couple years ago.
And I admit that various times already, when I don’t feel God, I try to find something that will ‘satisfy’ such as books, reading, writing, reading blogs, etc. I think that, since I don’t feel God close to me, I have an excuse to seek my own desires. Wrong. He is still my Lord. I am still His servant. And He still hears me. He hears my cries – and don’t you think He’s doing something through this all? A big resounding YES! I know without a doubt that He has His righteous hand on all of this. On everything. I just need to be put back on the right path a few times. Throw off the distractions and be pelted with ‘nothing but Christ’. Nothing but my Lord. Nothing but the knowledge that He is ALL. There is none that can satisfy but Him. None that can comfort me but Him. There is nowhere but Christ. Nowhere but my Lord.
I am joyful that He is calling me back – that He Himself is drawing myself to Him. That is what my soul has been craving. Him. None of my workings win out, because I am human and I fail. But He never fails, and it is up to Him right now to pull me back – and He’s doing that! I am joyful. I am thankful. I am praising! Because I am hungry. For Him only. It is like walking in a dry desert and yearning for someone to draw me to an oasis. He is doing that. Drawing me to the oasis that is Himself.
And you know, I’ll have to continually be drawn back to Him. Because I can do nothing, and I’m not going to try. Oh, I’m going to try to keep him always as first in my life – that is a comfort – but I am going to stop doing deadworks. Or try at least. I do struggle with not doing ‘works’ for Him – even though I know that He only wants me first and foremost.
Don’t give up, if you’re struggling. I pray that you will be pelted with knowledge of Him on every side of you. Because that is what we need. I once thought that, when reading constant things of ‘go to Him’, “I know, I know. but that’s not where I’m at right now”, but that is where I need to be. Because there is NOWHERE but Christ!! What glorious knowledge that is!!
I read a post that…well, it was an echo of myself. And in it I felted pelted. So, thank you Mrs. Wood for pelting His grace!
This is that post:
Remember, when there is nowhere else to go – Christ. There is nowhere but Christ! Run into His loving arms – let Him draw you.