Sorry for such a long time with no posts. I have been lacking in time, once again, and when I have time, my blog doesn’t immediately pop into my brain :) I kept meaning to make a post on a more deep subject, but alas, that has not happened either. I specifically wanted to go more indepth with the video I posted recently (found in this post: https://godspeculiartreasurerae.wordpress.com/2013/03/27/will-you-marry-me/ ); I don’t have much time to do so now, nor the energy, but I do want to stress the fact of it being really good, and I highly recommend that you all watch it – if you already have, that’s great, and another watch is great too! :) I really have thought really differently about taking communion now after having seen that video. How it is a covenant between Jesus and I, and yes, I want to join into that covenant whole-heartedly (is that a word?). Every Sunday I re-commit to that covenant by taking communion. As Jesus asks, “Will you marry Me?”, how do we respond? Will we say yes to Him, and open our lives up to Him completely and be His bride? I want to. All that is within me yearns to say yes, and be a “perfect disciple” of His – I cannot be perfect though. As much as I want to and strive to, I simply can’t attain perfection like that. I can however, say yes to Him. I can say yes, and give my heart to Him, and so I will. Even if I fail Him, I still want to say YES, because I love Him so ardently and want Him to be my everything.
Spiritually/emotionally I have been going through a lot lately. To be painfully honest, I have been and still am a total “mess”. There has been so much. Sometimes all I can do is nothing. Seriously, nothing. Except maybe cry, and relate to Tenth Avenue North’s song, “I’m Worn” which has meant a lot to me. Here, you can hear it too, if you haven’t already:
One thing that I am finding out, that is pretty much concrete, is that I am exactly where God wants me. He wants me at the very bottom, and He wants it so I can’t do anything. Because He says, “Apart from Me, you can do nothing” and I keep seeking Him, and He keeps having me where I’m at. I am learning that I really can’t do anything unless He wills it. And He’s comforted me with the fact that He is in my tears. That is Him.
I am waiting on Him to give the “go-ahead” for a couple of things, and so much of me wants to just push past that and do it myself, but I know that it is best to wait for Him to say, “It is time”. So I wait. And I pray. And I pray some more. And I cry a lot too. But that’s okay. Some days are good, and some days I can barely look up. But that’s okay, too. Today is kind of one of those “not so great” days. I just feel bleh. Tomorrow will be different though. And so I will keep waiting on my Lord and Saviour.
My nephews are BEAUTIFUL, and I don’t think I could love them anymore than I already do. They are amazing :) Elias is doing great, as is Liam. I love my boys.
We have a dog. We got him about two weeks ago, and that has been a trial. It is getting better though. At first he killed a chicken, which wasn’t a big deal because he didn’t kill the chicken, and we have more of those. But then he got off his run and killed our pet duck right in front of me, and that was horrible. It was horrible for many reasons, and shook me so much because it was more on the level of trust, and God was teaching me something. We weren’t going to keep the dog after that, but we decided to give him a try and bring him through training. We named him Doug (like the dog on UP). Training starts this Thursday. Dad has been the one taking care of Doug, but he got called up to Duluth to help my grandparents today, and so I am taking care of him now. God has healed my issues of trust, and – provided he doesn’t kill my cats next – I am beginning to like Doug a bit more. I am not a dog person (I love my kitties), but he is a good dog.
We got a dog mainly because we have been having severe skunk problems. Five in the last month or so. Dad shot three of them, our neighbour shot one, and one got hit on the road and lumbered into our yard to die. Two of the three Dad has shot, I have encountered in the barn – both a foot away from me. So that was fun. We’ve decided that Dad is going to teach me to shoot his gun, because obviously it would come in handy.
So, now I shall get on with the tag, because I am tired and ready to watch a movie with Mum and Noah :)
1) How would you describe you style?
Interesting and different. Often un-matching, always very “Raechel”.
2) What are you wardrobe staples?
Hmm…skirts, t-shirts and either hoodies or my army jacket.
3) Most expensive clothing item you own?
Probably my bridesmaid dress – I didn’t pay for that though..I think half was paid by Mum and Dad and the other half by Dallas and her money she saved up for her wedding…The dress was about a hundred…maybe a bit more. Not sure.
4) Most wanted item?
An army knapsack that is a little smaller than the one I have now (which I LOVE, but it is a bit too big to carry around very where. I’ll have to post pictures of it soon, though, because it is AWESOME).
5) Favorite designer?
Don’t have one. I like OP for shoes though :D
6)How much do you spend on clothing?
Not much at all. If it’s more than $10 I’ll most likely skip it.
7) Favorite places to shop?
Well, shopping for clothes (or shopping in general) isn’t a favourite pastime of mine, but mainly Walmart and thrift-stores.
8) Favorite fragrance?
Don’t know that I have one.
9) What is your go to outfit when you don’t have anything to wear?
Either my worn denim skirt (it’s not tight jean – it’s loose and almost flowy) or my brown skirt, with one of my favourite t-shirts. Probably my light bulb one or the Minnie and Mickey one.
10) Most prized possession?
Does this have to be fashion related? My Bible is probably my most prized possession…otherwise I don’t know. I am thankful for my things, but try not to cling to them. though I fail with that often…
Okay, so, I tag anyone who wants it :) Let me know if you do it, so I can see! =)
I’ll be off now, so ta-ta.